i don't know why, i'm always the one being left out. ever since sec 2, all my friends, especially my best friends, always find some one else and i'm always left alone. and now.. the same thing has happened. well, of course i'm really happy for them, but it just sucks you know. always being the one left out ain't nice. not nice at all. hope we all don't move further apart, cause i think it might happen. sometimes, i have no choice but to think its me but i doubt it. i mean, not trying to be egoistic here.. but yeah.

speaking of which, why must girls play so hard to get sometimes. can y'all just give in. aargh.

and recently, some people have been acting strange and perpetually distancing themselves. if i did something wrong, just tell me if not its not gonna change anything ain't it. and having a friend taken away from you hurts too. (no, none of my friends died but it seems like it though). so yeah, i may always seem happy and laughing all the time but actually i've got so much of emotions in me all bottled up, no ones knows about that part. its bad to keep it all in but i'll keep as much as i can handle at the moment.

gonna start gymming and BY THE END OF THIS WEEK I'M GONNA GET A SEPTUM PIERCING. i don't care. i have to end now, need to wake up early. so, nights.