met kevin at zirca yesterday and somehow it wasn't satisfying. it seemed like i wasn't there at all and it seemed like he didn't want me there. that really fucks cause i've never seen him acting so weird before. plus its me. so yeah.. ahh fuck it. zirca was boring once again and by boring i mean that i didn't get any chicks. spent so much and now i'm the definition of broke.
anyways, i really feel like i've been forgotten and not cared about anymore by some people. and these are the people closest to me so it really does hurt. it fells like i don't have any of my friends anymore. the only person that i can say that has been with me since the start is javier and i really hope i don't lose him too. hopefully its all because we're all so busy and maybe we all will be together again like how it used to be cause i really do miss y'all.
feeling so down now.
