ahhhhh people! having major crisis now man. ok, in summary, this girl called me to talk. but i wasn't free so i didn't talk long, about a minute or so. i could tell she wanted to talk so i felt really bad after i hung up. but i sent a text saying, "sorry i can't talk cause i'm really busy. will talk to you some other time." then she said something like it's nice of me to tell her that and how she had a fucked up day and all. so i asked what happened, and she hasn't replied me!!! ahhhh fuck! feeling damn guilty now man.

anyways, some background knowledge.

this girl is from my CTPP class and i just got to know her like on monday. started talking to her and stuff like that. i kinda "opened" up to her a bit. like more than normal to a person you just met. she's cool and stuff. personality wise pretty similar to me. but she kinda did something you shouldn't do when you just met someone. i was freaked out but flattered at the same time. BUT STILL! i think it's kinda save to say that she might have a thing for me ( i might be wrong though) but the thing is i don't wanna break her heart. it definitely won't work between us. she's not my type at all. i'm not a guy who goes for looks and stuff like that, i'm like a more ~feel~ kinda guy. for example, if i have that connection or that spark when i see you or talk to you then i probably have something for you. but with her, i've got nothing! and that's that. nothing else so yeah. still feel very bad though.

i'm just ranting ain't i. oh gosh. i don't even know what i'm saying. jeez.

moving on, i've heard that izzat's been talking shit behind my back. and i can tell he really hates me. i mean what the fuck dude. didn't i like fucking apologize to you and didn't you say you didn't want to ruin our friendship. i mean… stick to your fucking words man. and i think it's fucking childish of you to do what you did. the whole world doesn't revolve around you. you're a vile, malicious, stinky big piece of shit and you know it. and i really don't care if you see this or not.

i realized that when i'm angry, i don't really think well. like i write/think in a very stupid way and i always keep forgetting what i wanted to say. so don't mind the gibberish above. alas, i have run out of things to say so till next time.