just came back from HK (pictures will be up soon). well, it wasn't as fun as last year but nonetheless it was enjoyable. the two annoying little cousins of mine were well... annoying. i mean it is only after the trip that i realised that they were the ones that made it fun. but during... oh my god, where do i start? my sister and i fell sick when we came back, but we're better now (thanks for asking :))

this year wasn't that great as i expected it to be. it started of real slow, i had 4 months to do nothing and wait for school. i worked and went to bintan during that time though. school started (and time seemed to start ticking at a frantic speed from then on) made a lot of cool friends. friends i am hoping to keep. i must say my birthday really sucked this year. it didn't feel like my birthday at all. probably because i was stuck in a studio for 4 fucking hours. not just that, when i went out with my friends, they didn't really seem to care that it was my birthday. oh well, sometimes i think birthdays are over overrated.

i made friends and lost some friends as well. i think this was the most fucked up part of the year for me. i'm not used to losing people so that is why i was really affected by it. i don't understand how you can meet up with someone every single day, talk about anything to them, tell them we will be friends forever and suddenly just leave and pretend like none of that happened. on the other hand, i don't understand how you can be friends with someone for 4 years and suddenly become strangers. i still haven't wrapped my fingers round that.

all in all, i shall not complain and hope next year will not stink as bad as this year.

and here's to all who didn't have such a good year, went through shit and felt unwanted. here's to you, hoping that you'll stay strong and never give up cause if you had given up, you wouldn't be where you are right now. and here's to me, hoping that i'll find that missing piece i'm still looking for.

cheers.