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Beast And Harlot


Ashwind Menon
11/7/93
St. gabs sec. the Liverpool soccer guy

Scream

Until the end

Elizabeth
Francine
Javier
Jeth
Joel
Justin
Kai Ying
Kevin
Lydia
Matthew
Nikki
Shijie
Shona
Shuxiang
Vania
Yong Quan

Thursday, January 19, 2012
Time: 6:09 AM
Title: i'm not a toy thing.

well, where do i start? i feel used today. like really used. worst part it was by a person i care about. the audacity to call me to tell me what happened was fucked. it was like poking me with a knife at first and then stabbing it right through me, taking my heart out and throwing it away (ok, maybe i'm over-exageratting) but yeah, that's how it felt like.

somebody said that i should change my approach. be more loud. be more direct. grow some balls. it might work, he might be right. but, i'm scared of doing it and failing. i'm only human.

i think i'm too nice sometimes for my own good. it's like i'm opening myself up to be used. to be hurt. i'm nice only because i like making people happy, i love the joy of hearing "thanks, you've made my day." i love the smiles on their faces. but it is true, those who make people happy are the saddest people inside. we just hide the sadness. and by being too nice, you'll get used. well, the people that i thought will care, don't. so yeah.

lesson learnt here, never get your hopes high, don't expect anything. and don't be too kind.

p.s. i got used TWICE today.
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